Thursday, June 5, 2014

9 days past a 5 day transfer



I am 4 weeks today! The test line is just as dark as control line on hpt.Praise Jesus! I am going to acupuncture tomorrow to help relax me. I still have 4 days to go till my beta June 9th. I bought some cheap dollar store tests just in case I feel compelled to poas! lol




Monday, June 2, 2014

BFP!

Isn't it amazing that even when you've yet to have a viable pregnancy...when all of your pregnancies have ended in miscarriage...those two lines send your head and heart right off 

Isn't it amazing that even when you've yet to have a viable pregnancy...When all of your pregnancies have ended in miscarriage...Those two pink lines start your heart pitter pattering and your tummy feeling like butterflies are fluttering around in there! I am 6dp5dt.  I would not even call this a quinter. The line is definately there! I still have a whole week to wait for my beta!

Eric's does not like Mondays. Who does? So I thought if only I got a positive today, it would help start his week off on the right foot...And I did :) I usually hold off longer to test but I had some strong implantation cramps two days ago so I thought why not? lol

Thank-you Lord! Please protect our baby from those evil cytokines and Antinuclear Antibodies in my body. It is all in your hands now!







Thursday, May 29, 2014

Frozen embryo transfer -27th May



Tuesday the 27th May was my Embryo transfer. I had to cancel my acupuncture appointment because they scheduled me for 11:30 and it over a 2 hour drive to get there. However I could have gone to acupuncture because they bumped 2 people ahead of me. I had a full bladder from 10-12:15. Not fun. I think the 2 people they transferred before me had emergency transfers. That happened to me in 2012. They bumped me ahead of someone else . My transfer was suppose to be in the afternoon that time and they said I needed to come right away at 8am. Anyway I did not pee on the doctor so all is good! :)

My RE has agreed to let me take prednisolone and aspirin, for elevated antinuclear antibodies. I also have elevated Natural killer cells, which I asked by last OB to order from by Reprosource. but he would not order the test for me or interpret the results. It clearly said on the lab results HIGH next to NK cells.  So I haven't been able to get a prescription for intralipids. This seems to be the magic ingreidient for most ladies with cytokines who's blogs I have been follwoing :( Hopefully the prednisolone and baby aspirin therapy will be enough to keep those ANA and cytokines under control! I also take extra strength Krill oil which has Phospholipids. Praying for our rainbow baby! Eric has been calling our embryo "George" from the time he saw the embryo photo. He said he felt it would be good to give the baby a temporary name instead of referring to him /her as the embryo. He is so cute. George was his paternal grandfather. It's also his middle name. He joked that if it's a boy we can nickname him Boy George LOL (He knows I loved Culture club when I was a teen). If it's a girl, maybe Georgia? lol






Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Giving IVF another try



02/05/2014
Embryo retrieval day!! Huge ice storm so Eric and I drove up the night before. Good thing we drove up there the night before.. half an inch of ice and Chesterbrook was hit especially hard. No power. Our hotel room was one of those fantasy rooms. Which was all the Radisson had available. There was a jacussi near the bed, mirrors on the ceiling above the bed and on the walls! Lol Eric thought it was tacky. I couldn’t stop giggling. I could see he was didn’t like it and I wanted him to be comfortable so I asked to be changed to standard room. I told him I had visions of chains and whips . Who knows what goes on in those fantasy rooms.hehe. We couldnt use the jacussi anyway..Not good for Eric’s swimmers. We also did not like that it had NO windows. Weird! LOL
The bathroom was nicer and bigger in the standard and was the same price. Our room had 2 queen sized beds in it so we just slept in the one BED. Eric liked it because it was a sleep number bed. That night he had a dream about Paula. I asked what she said. He got a little teary eyed when he said that he asked her if she was here and she replied “Yes I am”. So her spirit is watching over our embryos in PA. J
My brother in law's girlfriend phoned and she said there is no power as of this morning so we made our way back home to turn the generator home so we could save our fish aquariums. They need to be kept at 84 F especially the babies. I Have been busy trying to get the temperature of the fish tank back up to 84.

02/06/2014
Day 1- We got 7 mature eggs. The other 3 were not mature. 30 eggs split between us and 2 other couples. That is pretty darn good! The best news is that All 7 Eggs were fertilized!! We are so ecstatic! Eric’s sperm did awesome!
Thank God for the generator or all our fish would have died! They are all ok even the 2 week old fry. I did huge water changes in all tanks since they had no filtration for several hours till we arrived home.

02/07/2014
Day 2- Six 4-cell, one 5-cell. In the past we have never gone past day 3 but these ones are looking wonderful and I am hopeful. My nurse seemed confident I will have a day 5 transfer and booked the ET for Monday at 1:20 pm. We were without power till tonight. Had the generator running for 2 days.
02/07/2014
Day 3- Seven 8 cell embryos):)) !! woohoo! That is exactly where they should be. Thank-you Lord!
Angelfish spawned again!! Third time in 5 weeks! That has to be a god sign! I believe that fish not only bring good luck but all this egg laying must be a sign of fertility in our home :)

02/10/2014
Embryo transfer day!!Day 5- Day started pretty early with Eric receiving phone calls at 2:30 and 4:30 am!! Not fair since he was on call all last week. Found out they forgot to switch lines for the on-call guy. Poor Eric hardly got any sleep and I didn’t either. 2 ½ drive to drive to PA again.  On our way there RE phoned and said our embryos were excellent!!:
1 Early Blastocyst
2 Full Blastocysts
3 Expanded Blastocysts
1 (Grade AA)-Hatching Blastocyst – this is the one they transferred J

I asked the clinic if it we could give our donor an anonymous gift. I had a bracelet made from beautiful stones for her. I wrapped it in a red and white box and gift bag for Valentine's day with a note that said "We appreciate you so much!!" I hope she likes it. :)
We ate lunch at Pei Wei Asian diner. I had some hot food. Spicy shrimp J

Here is our perfect Grade AA embryo and God willing, yfuture baby:




02/13/2014
We are having a huge snowstorm for Eric's birthday so pretty much snowed in and Eric has all this snow to shovel. Poor guy. We have 5 frosties. The 6th that didn't make it to freezing was probably the early blastocyst that was a bit slower than the others.
02/15/2014
We got 2 feet of snow. So tired of winter! 5 dp5dt- did a frer hpt and saw a very faint line but Eric said it's just a waterline. Probably too early..I will hold off for 3 days if I can.
02/18/2014
BFP!! Light second line on an early Answer hpt! Hoping this is our rainbow baby but not letting myself get too excited yet...


02/21/2014
I've been getting BFP's every day but line isn't getting darker :( Digital said "PREGNANT 1-2 weeks" but it should be saying 2-3 weeks since. I am 4 weeks 2 days today. I read some posts that the weeks estimator is not always accurate so trying to stay calm, but can't help worrying...

02/23/2014
BFN...Rainbow has slipped away again :( 
02/24/2014
Beta is 3 and since less than 5. means Negative.I had what the doctor called a chemical pregnancy. :( This is my 4th loss in 4 years :(  I had a long discussion with my fertility doctor. I asked him if he would consider intralipids. He said their practice didn't do it but he would ask the other doctors. Of course they said NO. He said FET should be better. I still believe my immune system is attacking the embryos. I will ask my kind OB from last year if she will order the NK test for me from a lab called Reprosource in MA.




Saturday, September 14, 2013

Remembering Paula


The morning Paula passed away, Eric saw a butterfly land on his window at work.  She had been fighting breast cancer for over 10 years so she had prepared all her funeral music. One of the songs was "I'll fly away".When it played tears flowed because the song was so apt. She passed away early in the morning just like the song said. we knew it wasn't a coincidence that Eric had seen that butterfly that morning.  We love you and miss you Paula!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1BPoMIQHwpo


October 15th

Remembering our 3 angels in heaven





Friday, September 13, 2013

Venting

Tomorrow will be 2 years that my sister-in-law Paula passed away. Not one day goes by where I don't think of  her. She had such a positive attitude. Even though she had stage 4 cancer and the doctors said she didn't have much time left. Paula had faith and her faith and God gave her several more years.  I wish I had her positiveness.  Today is one of those days where I feel sad and no matter what I do to keep busy I cannot stop the tears.  I am 9 dpo so I'll just blame it on hormones!  I got a smiley face on CD 12 and ovulated CD 14 which is early for me. Fingers crossed!

When Eric and I go out I sometimes let my mind wander and think of our 3 babies in heaven. I can imagine them there with us. The first one we lost would have been 3 years old next month :( The second, a boy would have been born next month. I should still be pregnant with a baby girl due January 26th 2014. I know I need to stop thinking negatively, but some days it is easier said then done...

I finished the baby crochet blanket I started during my last pregnancy in May.  I am not giving up hope.  My Mother in law said that Eric and I should just enjoy life together and not think about getting pregnant anymore. I asked her if she had the same opinion as my Mom. She said yes. She feels that since I miscarried 3 times that it will happen again.  Knowing this I know that when I get pregnant again we have to keep it a secret...


Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Karyotype results

Our karyotypes came back normal for both Eric and me.  While waiting on the results I had convinced myself I must have translocations since my parents were over 40 when I was conceived. The genetic councellor said that the next pregnancy could be perfectly normal and not to be scared of  trying again.  She said the last 3 miscarriages were just bad luck. I am so ready for our luck to turn around!

The long list of Repeat pregnancy loss bloodwork also came back negative for everything. Homocysteinene levels were normal, Factor V Leiden, Prothrombin)Protein C Panel (Free Antigen Functioning), Antithrombin Activity. All negative.  I also had a mammogram screening last friday since this time last year I had to have 7 calcifications biopsied. Everything was fine this time. Yay! On the 20th July I was still getting a faint positive on pregnancy test but by 22nd it was finally negative and I got AF.  I just got a positive opk today Cd 16. So ready to try again!