ERA- Endometrial biopsy-CD 21

I had my endometrial biopsy for my ERA today. Startling discovery when my RE did my 21 day ultrasound. He said I have Adenomyosis! (yes in addition to endometriosis which I had excised in May this year) It's a mild case that he said shouldn't affect my getting pregnant. I know quite alot about adenomyosis because my close friend since childhood has it. It makes a woman's body produce too much estrogen. This makes me angry because my 4 medicated ivf cycles probably caused my adenomyosis in the first place!!! That explains why my body reacted so adversley to the del estrogen injections. I was already producing too much estrogen. Back to my childhood friend. She went for her 19 week utrasound where she was supposed to find out the gender. Sadly her baby's heartbeat was gone. :(  she said she heard it with the doppler just 2 days before :(  I am devastated for her. Not feeling much hope for myself now since she is the same age as me (44). 

When RE found the "adenomyosis" His first reaction was quite annoying. "This thing is growing" he said. Then he turns to me like a kid who has found a hidden treasure in the sand and says "It looks like a pregnancy...but it probably isn't". Not the kind of thing you tell a woman who has had 8 losses and doing donor egg ivf.  So he had me do a pee pregnancy test just in case.  All this time in my head I am thinking ..but we used birth control. I couldn't be pregnant..so what was the RE seeing in my uterus? Maybe the ghost of the pregnancy I had last November? I am only cycle day 21. How could he see a pregnancy on an u/s even if I had conceived. I should have told him smugly when he said it wasn't  a pregnancy.."well I have gotten naturally pregnant several times including last November" Not that I expect him to remember but it almost makes me feel like getting pregnant naturally again just to remind him I can get pregnant without his help! I know, a bit irrational, but the nerve of him you know?  Pregnancy test was of course negative. If he really thought it was a pregnancy on cycle day 21, why not order a beta? Urine hpt would not show positive that early. My beta from my chemical was zeroin Sept. I just don't understand Re's.

After the biopsy he said Ivigen recommends a second biopsy. I really don't want to delay embryo transfer by another month and pay another $900. *sigh* If I get a "pre-receptive result" That will be good enough for me. Then we will know we need to add an extra day of pregesterone, Natural cycle requires so much bloodwork and u/s. I will do it for transfer but not for another ERA. I also told him that I was disappointed in the "natural cycle" I thought natural meant only progesterone supplementation without estrogen which I want to avoid.  He said it would be risky to do it without. I said no way if I get pregnant am I doing estrogen until week 12. I have known other women who did a natural cycle without estrogen. So we compromised and I will only have to estrace from cycle day 16 until BFP. Then I can discontinue and only do Progesterone.

ERA-CD 15

Another blood work and ultrasound appointment yesterday morning and today. My poor veins are shot, Good news though, that 23.9 follie is gone and they saw corpeus luteum so I ovulated on my own and wont need the ovidrel trigger injection! Bloodwork confirmed it and I felt ovulation cramping last night too so I was pretty sure I ovulated. Endometrial biopsy is scheduled for 11/11. I'm So relieved it doesn't fall on a weekend so Dr M will be doing my procedure as I hoped. I can't always be unlucky. I start my vag estrogen and PIO tomorrow

ERA- CD 14- (Ovulation)

Yesterday and today more blood draws and ultrasounds. My lining is 9.5. I think the person measuring on Sunday was being generous with her 9.9 measurement.  Tomorrow will be the 6th office visit for this Natural cycle so far  and I have to go back in again tomorrow! At least they detected my LH surge to day Maybe I won't need that Ovidrel trigger that's sitting in my fridge afterall! My follie is 23.3 and ready to pop! I am feeling some cramping on my right ovary. Unusual because it's usually the left. I was beginning to think my right ovary was blocked or something. Nurse said estrogen is dropping and progesterone is rising  indicating ovulation is happening soon. Thank goodness! I am tired of having to leave at 6:30 am every morning to get there for 7:30. Hopefully this will be the last before my ERA biopsy. My nurse cracks me up. She said I am her first natural cycle and she doesn't want me to feel like I am the experiment. I am the teacher lol

ERA- Natural cycle-CD 11

I had another ultrasound and bloodwork today. I have 9.9 lining so far. All my transfers I've had 7.8 -8.6 which is good but this is excellent and no del estrogen hormone injections to thicken lining! E2-254 and LH- 4.32. RE was worried at my age that my lining would not get more than a 6. He said he would have to cancel a natural cycle that was less than a 6.  Well he will be surprised when he gets my results. I'll start PIO in a few days. This is a mock cycle but they are doing everything the way it will be for the cycle I do embryo transfer.I am so glad I am doing a natural cycle with no Estrogen because that is the medication that affected my thyroid. Feeling hopeful and considering doing a December transfer if ERA results come back receptive. I have another appointment on Tuesday.

ERA- CD 9 Bloodwork & ultrasound

My Lining is 7.8 on CD 9.  Bloodwork results- LH-  4.32 and E2- 119. Nurse said I have one follicle growing nicely so I go back on Sunday. Hoping that I ovulate on my own so I don't need the ovidrel (hcg trigger) injection. This ERA cycle is like a mock cycle. I will start PIO injections and estrace after I ovulate. Not sure when in relation to the biopsy procedure. Re said biopsy would be 7 days after ovulation. Loving this "Natural cycle" so far and that  I can skip the 3 weeks of del estrogen injections. That awful vaginal burning( allergic reaction in) was the worst and I am sure it was my body telling me something was wrong. Plus each bottle was $490 a bottle out of pocket.

Dr M finally got the gender from my last Chemical pregnancy. Normal Boy. Our first boy. All the others (from donor egg) have been girls. Funny because I had nicknamed him "Little Eric"

I have been doing my "Restoring fertility yoga" dvd again and Eric is teasing me about the breath of fire lol He imitates the drumbeats to a tee when I have the volume turned down. He cracks me up. I used to cue it up daily for 3 yrs in a row. I realized how much time has passed since I started it back in 2011 by the length of their hair! Mine was like Wendy Yu's when I started. Now even after cutting it 5 inches it's longer than the one lady's with the mid-back length. 

CD 1 finally!

Finally! After 40 long days of waiting for my period after my chemical pregnancy. I start bloodwork and ultrasound for ERA cycle starting CD 9. Since I am trying to avoid del estrogen, will be doing a a natural cycle. Not looking forward to the every other day trips to my clinic for monitoring to detect my LH surge. Last time I did OPK's a year ago, I was surging CD 12 so fingers crossed my LH surge is early which means less ultrasounds!

October 15th- pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day

Tonight, Eric and I lit 8 candles for the Wave of light remembrance. One of the candles, had a flame that was much taller than the others and was "dancing"around and I could feel a strong presence in the room as though spirits were  trying to communicate with us.  Eric asked which baby did that candle represent and I replied "George/Georgia". In the photo I took, you can see an orb next to that candle on the upper left!