Wobenzym N

Yesterday I started a new supplement. I did quite a bit of research on it first.  I have also talked to a lady online who has had success after multiple losses. She said it works much like prednisone without the side effects. I figure I can take it until a month before my next FET and then switch to the prednisolone since I know my RE will roll his eyes at this supplement.

My nurse contacted me and said they would be doing the biopsy for PGS on our embryos next week.! Yay! Finally!

Saline sono and mammogram

I had a saline sono yesterday to make sure I didn't have any adhesions from my 3rd d & c in July.  Thankfully, my doctor said my uterus looked great. He added with a smile "I must say, this is your best one so far". Then I had a clean bill after my mammogram in the afternoon. So, it was a good day. Now we wait for PGS.

Patience is a virtue

The biopsy on our embryos has not been done yet.  I probably should not have been so eager to order the blood test for Eric. I was in San Francisco when I made the appointment and the connection wasn't good and the lady must have only heard the "genetic screening" when I said "pre-genetic screening".  So that is where Eric's blood was sent. To Councyl. So from that,we found out that he is a carrier of Cystic Fibrosis. Our donor and I are both negative for that disease so it is not a concern for us since both parents need to contribute a gene for cystic fibrosis. However I read that a carrier of cysstic fibrosis often suffers with infertility, Kind of explains the 3 years it took to get a bfp.

Eric had to have a his blood drawn again. Our donor had hers drawn but results are still pending. Since we are going to be in Barbados for 2 weeks in December we have decided to wait until February?March for our next transfer. Depending on the PGS results of course.

I can't believe summer is over already and I missed out on many of the things I look forward to in the summertime.  Going through a 5th miscarriage and d & c was not how I envisioned it.  I was looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas being pregnant.  Each year those holidays become an even more painful reminder that infertility sucks big time!

PGS

August 1st my HCG levels were finally down to zero!  I talked with our Re last week and I insisted that we wanted to have the Natera 24 chromosome PGS. Our clinic uses the vitrification method of freezing so hopefully our embryos will be ok. Eric and I wanted to do PGS before the embryos were cryopreserved, but when I asked our RE he did not think it was necessary. He said that young women (our donor is 25) do not have aneuploid eggs. However, I have done some research and this is NOT true. Yes they have alot less than someone my age. However, when their ovaries are stimulated to produce 30 eggs, there is a lot more chance of aneuploidy. I read a lady's blog a couple months ago and her experience with PGS. She said that her best two AA blastocysts were the ones with aneuploidy and the two that were given a less desirable grade were the chromosomally normal ones.  I am praying that the PGS gives us some answers regarding my last 2 miscarriages. Hopefully by transferring a euploid blastocyst and doing the prednisolone and lovenox therapy that we will have our rainbow at last.

Maternal Cell Contamination

 I am so upset!  As if we have not had enough bad luck already, the doctor said there was Maternal cell contamination of the Karyotype results on the miscarriage.  So we are left with no answers whatsoever!! Normal female XX which the doctor said was probably from my cells because it matched my blood :( This is the worst possible outcome. Now we don't know whether it was the NK cells in my uterus that caused the miscarriage or if there was a chromosome issue :( No answers. Where do we go from here? I feel so empty, like I went through another miscarriage and there is no evidence that this pregnancy ever even happened and that George ever existed :(

D & C

I had a d & c July 11th. hopefully we get some answers from the karyotyping.  I am praying it is a chromosome issue and that it was not my Nk cells in my body that attacked a healthy baby. :(
I was looking forward to being pregnant on my birthday July 20th. Everything happens for a reason everyone keeps telling me. All I know is I need to be strong because I have a wonderful husband who is good to me and losing all these babies is affecting him just as much as me. I am grateful for having him in my life and everything we have been through has brought us even closer together.

3rd ultrasound- 8 weeks 5 days- No heartbeat :(

RIP George. You will be in our hearts always. We love you and will miss you...